Saturday, July 27, 2002

a lot has happened since the last time i wrote. my mom had a birthday - happy birthday. my dad, well i spent some unexpected time in the hospital, and life is twisted again. for so long i have wanted people to get along. sometimes i ask how much does it take? at what cost do you decide that you just can't take it anymore? anyways. tomorrow is my birthday. big whoop. the only family member i will see or probably hear from is my brother. but i guess life goes like that.

Wednesday, July 10, 2002

ahhh another day, a wednesDAY. i am always scared i am going to mispell that day of the week because i often do. so i usually try and just abreviate to weds. i'm tired but on the good side i really like my mass comm class. maybe its because i know my teacher and he is a super person. nah, just the good discussion. so much i feel that i need to do. i need to find a place to live, and hopefully i will come across a good deal soon because if not it looks like i am gonna have to start workin the street corners to live...hah...nah i would never do that. ohio was fun. it was nice to see the family, together again...happy...haha. my little (and not so little anymore) cousins are the coolest people. they are getting so big, makes me feel old and i know i'm not. am i? when does one consider themselves old these days? is it a physical, emotional, or mental status? weird things have been happening lately. things that i was blind of until they did happen. what am i to think of all of this? what should my reaction be, probably something different than my blank stare of the lately. everyone (except for the old fashion people who will contradict a lot of things thought by the younger generations, sometimes just in spite) should check out www.adbusters.org , and take it for what its worth. i will be in houston either this weekend or next pending on the decision of a very important person. on no note i am leaving. ciao.

Tuesday, July 09, 2002

I’ll sing myself to sleep
A song from the darkest hour
Secrets I can’t keep
Inside of the day
Swing from high to deep
Extremes of sweet and sour
Drawn by the undertow
My life is out of control
I believe this wave will bear my weight
So let it flow
It’s hard to carry on
When you feel all alone
Now I’ve swung back down again
It’s worse than it was before
If I hadn’t seen such riches
I could live with being poor
Those who feel the breath of sadness
Sit down next to me
Those who find they’re touched by madness
Sit down next to me
Those who find themselves ridiculous
Sit down next to me
Love, in fear, in hate, in tears
Oh sit down
Sit down next to me
Sit down, down, down, down, down
In sympathy
- james

Sunday, July 07, 2002

i am in ohio. lots to write about...later. have a good one. ciao.

Wednesday, July 03, 2002

its wednesday. i have 1 final left and then i am off to ohio in the morning. i am sick to my stomach, don't know why either. j.mascis is cool. its has just taken a break from raining though i am sure it is about to start a downpour again shortly. its been nice, the rain. at least in my opinion. my sleeping habits are starting to get weird again. a little here and a little there but nothing stable. so i guess i just sleep when i am tired. i realized that coming to the spanish lab would not become part of my routine but rather part of my outa routine when my internet is down. i gotta stop typing now and do some more studying. ciao.

Monday, July 01, 2002

its been a crazy few days...weird dreams and weird reality. i went to houston for the weekend. went to warped tour on saturday, it was fun but i didn't think it was anything to rave about this year...probably because half of it was rained out and the fact that it was inside where everything sounded crapy. i drove home this morning at 4:30, i was exhausted and i still am. it was gruesome. its raining here. its beed raining here. i like it. its about time that the weather changed to something more grey. i was almost blind by the amound of sun i have taken in over the past few months. i took a nap today, but i have a spider in my room so i didn't get the chance to actually take a good nap. oh well. well i am going to venture to la clase de espanol. ciao.